Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Now, for those of you who have ever considered a hysterectomy, I had a partial and for me it was pretty much a piece of cake. What I do NOT recommend is having an emergency appendectomy 12 days later. Seriously. Take my word for it and DO NOT DO THIS! It really screws up your life. The surgery itself wasn't so bad. Not a lot of pain involved, unless you count the horrible 3 day illness and 2 emergency room visits that preceded this surgery. What is does to a 37 year old woman's body - pure H-E-L-L. I'm telling you, I feel like I was hit by a bus then hit again. Wiped out. I thought I'd feel better each passing day, but unfortunately, speed doesn't seem to be a part of this particular recovery process.
I went to the doctor yesterday... the follow up appointment to my 1st surgery. You know the appointment where I was supposed to be released to go back to work. HA! No going back to work for me. Four more weeks of recovery time is what he's suggested. Lovely. I'm doing my best to take it easy. I have a great group of family and friends who have pitched in lots of help.
I guess for now I'm going to take a piece of my own advice and take care of me... I mean, honestly, I don't have very many removable body parts left!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Aren't they the cutest Koreans you've ever seen?
The minute she walked in the door this afternoon, Miss Ava announced that she is now a 5th grader. Apparently this is a big deal. In her 9 year life, this is a huge deal. Like, GINORMOUS! She's growing up. FIFTH GRADE. She wants to pick her own clothes and do her own hair and talk on the phone with her friends. She doesn't want to be my baby girl anymore. I'm not sure I'm ready. Not that that matters. I promised myself on the day that she was born that I would always allow her to be her own person. I would guide her and hopefully lead her through a beautiful path, but I would not hinder her from learning her own life's lessons. That was an easy promise to make back when she was a helpless little crying creature in her bassinet. I've never broken a promise. At least not knowingly... This might be the hardest promise I've ever had to keep.
Now Luke... he seems to care less that this school year has ended. It's like he doesn't even conceive that in August he will be in 1st grade in a brand new school. Nope. He's still my little boy. All I have to do is throw a football with him and I am the best mom ever. How easy is that? I wonder if that will still be all it takes for him to still think I'm awesome on his last day of 4th grade...
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Saturday, March 01, 2008
So why don't I do it more often??? Life gets in the way... Stupid answer. Life is what I like to write about. It helps me get things off my chest. I don't do it because I want the whole world to know what's going on. I just do it because I'm not good with whining and sometimes you just need to emotionally purge.
I think this may be why I am where I am. It has been too long since I have allowed myself to let it out. Could that be why I feel like I've recently fallen in a manhole and no one knows I'm here??? Oh yeah. Absolutely!!! Even still, I don't think I'm ready to let it all out. Just yet. I still need time to analyze the crap out of it. See where I'm going with it. What the next step will bring. Then. Maybe. I will have a good emotional vomit.
Until then. I'll just keep writing in my head.